Saturday, April 10, 2010

Discovering me


The past three months have been about gardening and traveling Europe, but it has also been about getting to know myself. Who am I really? What are my desires? What are my passions? I've been trying to distinguish between my true self and the parts of me that are influences from others. I am trying to be as authentic and honest with myself as possible and being open to change in this journey. I'm taking all these persona's, bundling them up, throwing them away and liberating my true self. I love being a gardener. I love getting my hands dirty in the soil and connecting with the plants. I love doing physical work. I feel alive, more human. I love studying plants and learning their medicinal properties. I feel a connection to my ancestors who have passed this knowledge down through the generations. I love volunteering and helping worthwhile causes that aren't dependant on exploitation, commercialism, and capital gain, but rather geared towards being stewards of the land, earth conscious, and sustainable.
I feel that being at the Awakened Life Project at Quinta da Mizarela in Portugal is helping in my journey to finally get to know myself. I am focused on just being. Being me. I can slow down, breath, and focus on letting myself emerge.

2 comments:

  1. Oh my gosh, we just finished watching the British version of the movie "Edge of Darkness". The environmental group in the movie was called GAIA. What does it mean and/or stand for? So glad you are having a great experience. Miss you!

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  2. Gaia is the greek goddess for earth...kinda like Mother Nature. You will probably notice Gaia used a lot in environmental circles. In fact, one of my favorite permaculture books is called Gaia's Garden by Tobey Hemingway.

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